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[15 Jul 2004|06:08pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

Just here to say that I'm alive. I gave up on tryin' to figure this shit out a long time ago, so I'm just going with the flow. The flow seems to be going all of nowhere though.

This fuckin' sucks. I'm bored. I need alcohol. I need sex.

I don't even know where the hell anyone is right now. I'm gonna go hibernate or somethin' now.

Soak the sin

[14 Mar 2004|04:50am]
[ mood | grumpy ]

Lust rules.

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[06 Mar 2004|08:56am]
[ mood | amused ]

Damn. I missed Rinoa's birthday..


God, I'm such an ass. It's great.

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Eh. [01 Mar 2004|10:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yeah, here sort of. I think I drank somethin' bad, 'cause apparently I had something having to do with alcohol. Was pukey and such. Ah well. I lived.

I guess everyone's alright and whatever, not that I care, but since no one died I don't have anything to talk about. I'm not pullin' a Squall, I'm gonna be here.

Uh, good work, Raijin. And all that.

So. What's up?

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[12 Feb 2004|12:13am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I'm here and I am not a manwhore.

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[30 Jan 2004|02:11pm]
[ OOC: For those of you who care, and even those of you who don't, my OOC journal is now dana_the_slayer. I've only added one person so far, so.. Add that journal and I'll add you back. It will probably be friends only. ]
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Eh. [24 Jan 2004|10:43am]
[ mood | lonely ]

So here's a quick rundown of what's been going on. And I may tell like, real feelings here so it'll be a first for all of us.

Last weekend I finally agreed to go out with that bitch that Fujin had me set up with. It was disasterous. She was like, this ugly ass version of Selphie (not that Selphie's ugly or anything), who acted as if Zell, Selphie and Squall had some sort of kid. She was this nightmare. She must have been a schizo, one minute she acted like Zell and Selphie, the next she was fucking "whatever"ing me like Squall, and then at the end of the date she wanted sex.. I actually to Hyne ran away. Remind me to never listen to Fujin again.

And then on Friday I got a visit from someone I used to know. Her name is Mei, and she was transferred to Galbadia. It kind of threw me off, 'cause I'd venture to say that Mei's the only other person in the world I've ever given a damn about. Only thing I could think to say to her was "You let your dye grow out.. You're blonde?" and it was all downhill from there. Guess she's not coming back, fuck her, not like I give a damn anymore. I only cared because of her money. Besides, I could have any woman I wanted here.

Ain't been getting too much sleep.. Goddamn nightmares, and I either gotta watch myself die or wake myself up. So I sit up. I'm fucking tired of them, I think I need a devil's brew that'll help you sleep now. Yeah, I swear by that stuff for hangovers now.

And I'm fucking depressed. I don't like the feeling. I haven't wanted to do anything. Don't wanna fight, don't wanna fuck. Just wanna sleep, which I can't do because of the fucking nightmares! Christ. So yeah, that's why I'm so weird. You'll get over it. Had a dream that I had sex with someone from the "orphange gang".. Not saying who it was because that's weird as hell, but it was.. Uh, interesting. Not that it makes any sort of difference.

I'm going to go back to be depressed, lonely, sad, all that good shit now. Maybe I'll kill things and get drunk for the hell of it. I'm sure Fujin and Raijin would come.

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I want love [10 Jan 2004|04:30am]
[ mood | bored ]

I want a cup that overflows with love
Although it's not enough to fill my heart
I want a barrel full of love
Although I know it's not enough to fill my heart
I want a river full of love
But then I know the holes will still remain
I need an ocean full of love
Although I know the holes will still remain

And this Swiss-cheese heart knows
Only kindness can fill its holes
And love can dry my tears
As pain disappears

I need a miracle and not someone's charity
One drop of love from her
And my heart's in ecstasy
The high that is sending me
Is most likely ending me
I need a miracle and not someone's charity

Fill up my heart with love
Oh, you'd be amazed at how little I need from her
to feel complete here and now
Stirring within me
are these feelings I can't ignore
I need a miracle and that's what I'm hoping for

I need a miracle and not someone's charity
One drop of love from her
And my heart's in ecstasy
The high that is sending me
Is most likely ending me
I need a miracle and not someone's charity now
Oh, baby

Anybody's love but hers will never fill this space within me
Now doctor, give me what I need to free my heart from misery

Soak the sin

Eh.. [03 Jan 2004|11:58pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I'm tired. I've been awake for a few nights. I can't sleep, and when I get to sleep, I have nightmares. It's weird as hell.

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[01 Jan 2004|04:39pm]
[ mood | Hung over. ]

I'm hungover. It sucks.

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[30 Dec 2003|04:15pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Oh hell. I guess I'll write this. I wanted to, but I wasn't really sure if I should. Other people read this, and that would be weird if I put something and they.. Y'know, knew about it. But anyway, here we go.

Here's.. Something. (OOC: Has to do with the whole sorceress thing, just my part of the SL.)Collapse )

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Whoa. [30 Dec 2003|03:46pm]
[ mood | horny ]

So. Had a hell of a day so far. Been so busy that I can't.. No, not really, not busy at all. It's boring as hell around here.

It's like something out of an alternate universe movie around here. They gave me my job back here, and if that wasn't strange enough, all the damned people around here follow the rules since Squally- wally is a big shit. It's like they respect him or something. It's retarded. Anyway.

Most exciting thing that happened today was with Fujin and Raijin. I dared Raijin to lick Fujin, and he actually did. Lapped all up the right side of her face. It was hilarious in itself, then she started to kick the shit out of him. Was fun.

Nothing. Fujin wants to set me up on a blind date, says it's a girl from Garden, but I'm pretty skeptical about that. I never know just what she'll do. She could be setting me up for disaster. So I guess I'll stick to ja-- being single.


Nothing else. I have to go now. I want to yell at someone.

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[30 Dec 2003|01:44am]
[ mood | Here. ]

Eh, so.. Here's my journal. Guess everyone else's gottem, too. Figured I might catch the bandwagon.

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