So here's a quick rundown of what's been going on. And I may tell like, real feelings here so it'll be a first for all of us.
Last weekend I finally agreed to go out with that bitch that Fujin had me set up with. It was disasterous. She was like, this ugly ass version of Selphie (not that Selphie's ugly or anything), who acted as if Zell, Selphie and Squall had some sort of kid. She was this nightmare. She must have been a schizo, one minute she acted like Zell and Selphie, the next she was fucking "whatever"ing me like Squall, and then at the end of the date she wanted sex.. I actually to Hyne ran away. Remind me to never listen to Fujin again.
And then on Friday I got a visit from someone I used to know. Her name is Mei, and she was transferred to Galbadia. It kind of threw me off, 'cause I'd venture to say that Mei's the only other person in the world I've ever given a damn about. Only thing I could think to say to her was "You let your dye grow out.. You're blonde?" and it was all downhill from there. Guess she's not coming back, fuck her, not like I give a damn anymore. I only cared because of her money. Besides, I could have any woman I wanted here.
Ain't been getting too much sleep.. Goddamn nightmares, and I either gotta watch myself die or wake myself up. So I sit up. I'm fucking tired of them, I think I need a devil's brew that'll help you sleep now. Yeah, I swear by that stuff for hangovers now.
And I'm fucking depressed. I don't like the feeling. I haven't wanted to do anything. Don't wanna fight, don't wanna fuck. Just wanna sleep, which I can't do because of the fucking nightmares! Christ. So yeah, that's why I'm so weird. You'll get over it. Had a dream that I had sex with someone from the "orphange gang".. Not saying who it was because that's weird as hell, but it was.. Uh, interesting. Not that it makes any sort of difference.
I'm going to go back to be depressed, lonely, sad, all that good shit now. Maybe I'll kill things and get drunk for the hell of it. I'm sure Fujin and Raijin would come.